gloomy

알고 있어 너..그저 사랑해달라며 한 남자 앞에서 여자일 뿐이야....

"난 괜찮아" ---실은 가슴 속에서 울고 있어...

"좋아해 바보야"---눈감고 아무 일이 없는 것 처럼 지내고 있다...

조용한 성품이지만, 스트레스를 받으면 녹초가 되는 경우가 왕왕 있다..

작은 일에짜증 내며 질투심이 대단하다 ----아주

한가지 일에 얽메이지 않으면...매력적인 품성 (hahaha) 때문에 주위 사람들의 신뢰와 사랑을 얻는다........still 나한테 관심 있나???

p/s; aku terjebak lagi mlm tadi dan sakit...amat sakit.....

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lawak 12_v2

cam biasa aku akan diangkut oleh housemate aku ke seksyen 1? (ala yg dekat dgn shell tu..sataj kajang apa entah)...teman der mkn....bertambah buncitlah aku nie..waaa...anyway...cam biasa kitaorang borak2 hal ilmiah, politik, ali baba, GST, family, dan cam2 lagi yg berat tapi best...(yolahtu)...masa mkn sambil layan cite mengarut yg dah terlampau banyak kat tv hujan pun turun dgn lebatnyer...(cam drama melayulah pulak hahaa)...lepak jap tunggu hujan reda baru nak gerak ke kete...dah kul12..decided rendah ujan nak balek..kwn aku kata jom redah hujan...aku dgn maachonyer...hahaha..berjln dlm hujan ke kete (kan aku nampak seksi dlm hujan *muntah)....tanpa disedari kwn aku ke arah laen aku kearah laen...nak dijadikan cite..ada sebijik kete yg look exactly the same dgn kete kwn aku nie..park tak sebelah2 tp dekat2...aku dgn machonyer jln ke kete dan tried bukak pintu...tiba2..."wei sebelah sini" kwn aku ckp..@#!$@!$$@$$tidak.....aku termalu...pulak tu kete yg aku salah tu parked btul depan satu kedai satay nie dan perbuatan aku disaksikan oleh pengunjung2 kedai satay tu....waaa..aku dgn malu tersipu..cabut rus luruh ke kete kwn aku masuk kete trus tutup muka..hahahaha..kwn aku punya gelak cam haram...der leh ckp lagi..orang2 kat kedai satay tu dok gelak besar tgk aku...weaaaaa....jam kul 12.03am..dan aku termalu2 kat ldm kete...waaa..confirm banned seksyen tu untuk sebulan...malu besar..case nie dah berlaku kat kau 2kali gak..oklah yg nie kete tu tak berbunyi dan tak der orang..kes seelum nie..aku rasa aku dah dicop sbg penyamun..hahaha...nasib baeklah takder per2...hahaa

aku memang lampi sikit bab hafal nom kete nie..sebb aku akan ingat warna, bentuk, rupa, dan benda2 pelik kat kete tu (sticker, brg hiasan dlm kete etc...) drpd ingat num..hahaha..lagi payah tapi otak aku dah terset cam tu...adeh...jadi...kejadian yg sama pasti berulang....hahahaha

p/s: 어젯밤 친구랑 나의 취향을 의논했어서...아무래도 나...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

ngantok...

담주 한국에서 올 손님 대접해야한다....하기 싫다보다는 좀 귀찮을 까 봐 단 사람한테 임무를 밀고 싶다. 알다시피 여기서는 한국말 할 줄 아는 사람 나밖에 없으니까 임무를 나한테 막히게 되었다.....

일단은 의사소통 문제...오랫만에 한국말 안했으니까 언어지장 생기는 거 당연하고 ...영어는 좀 아는데 그쪽에서 좀 약하구만...ㅜㅜ...

그리고 더운 나라로 오니까 엄살 만이 할거고 (아무래도 꼭 뿌릴걸)...나도 한국에 처음 왔을때 추위때매 자증 만이 났다....

hoping i can cope with them insyaAllah....

btw...for those who are interested to do some part time job (survey) please contact fareed@ 0176865451 . He's looking for people@students who are interested to do on-field survey.

p/s: jom tasek kejut jogging anyone petang nie...aku dah sanggap nak jogging..hahaha

new???

weekend was a blast for me..hahaha..aside from lost our car at the pavillion car park due to losing mind after watched "alice in wonderpet" everything was great...hahaha...leh tak kitaorang---lima kepala boleh tak ingat kat maner parking kete...hahaha...end the end after "window shopping" from b3 to b1 baru lah jumpa..tu pun kat D33...the driver was so insisted that he parked kat b3 while aku insisted kita park kat b33..hahah...pulak parking ticket kena additional 2ringgit sbb pusing more than 30minute..hahaha

reached kat umah member dlm kul 4 pagi...and woke up kul 9am untuk activity terterusnyer mandi sungai...planned mandi kat gombak..but then disebabkan nak cari port yg baek..kitaorang end up kat bentong pahang via lebuhraya karak..hahaha..we decided to ask for direction...add another 10km sampailah ke hutan simpan lentong..hahaha...dan mandilah kitoang dgn air syngai yg keruh..--due to heavily rain...

sayangnyer ak utak tangkap sekeping gambarp un sbb tel kong..cit..Lg punya keburukan dr dulu lagi..battery cepat deplect hahaha....

tujerlah kot...yg lelain tu...aku nak story tp a bit personal..sbb melibatkan keluarga...tupun adek aku yg cite smlm...sbb tu kot tel aku mati..ada hikmahnyer...tension jap..tp bila pikirkan blaik...lagi tension...biarlah.janji my parents happy isnyaAllah...

extended----

google translate memang tak berapa boleh dipercayai jer kengkawan..hahaha...teringat satu kes...si hans...(ex lab member) cuba berinteraksi dgn bhs korea mengunakan google translate..he tried to say good night.. see you tomorrow...translated it via google translator and end up with 내귀엽둥이 잘 자...the end part was ok but the beggining of the sentence "killed" me with all night laughter...how on earth the fu^&ing google translator translated the sentence???hahaha....





but hey at least you guys are workign on it kan...i mean..korang yg raji ngi copy and paste into google translator...learnt something new kan..hahah...but do make sure to check wtih someone who is experience with the language ok..or u'll end up humilate urself or in some cases a drop of tears due to laugh..hahahaa...





암튼, 셤 볼 날 얼마 안 남으니까 열심히 해야지...꼭 합격해야한다...난 여기서 떠나고 싶어...여기 있는 사람들 다 싫어해졌어...싫다..만약 남게 되면 그냥 참고 이번 기회를 통해서 꼭 떠나고파.....





예배한후마다 꼭 하나님께 합격해주라 기원하곤 해...난 새세상 보고 싶다..물론 모르는 사람도 만나고 싶고....엿날 추억 싫어하는 사람, 꼴보기 사람 외면하고 싶다...그래서 이번 기회는 꼭 여기서 벗고 싶다..인샤알라!!





pagi2 aku dah terpacak kat FSSK...haha....nak guna wifi yg laju punya pasal..giler kedekut nak subscribe berukband kan..hahaha...nantilah aku buat...tupun kalu aku trus dok luarkan...hahaha...하여간 benda tu akan dilakukan pas aku settle licence??hahaha..entah bila tak tahu..berat sungguh utnuk aku buat benda tu..haha naper tak pasti..haha...takurt kena marah lagi kot hahah...



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gambar yg buat aku tertawa mengilai kul 12 tghmlm...hahaha...rasanyer dah ada entry pasal nie hahah

alo...

때로는 위롭고 때로는 혼자 있는 게 좋다...

pening pening..hahha..

암튼...나 왕따 당했다..사무실 있는 사람들한테...이유는 모르지만..니들 맘때로 해..아차피 첫날부터 난 니들 그렇게 좋아하지 않으니까...상관 없다 야...ㅋㅋㅋ

난 월래 왕따 당한 사람이니까 맘 신경 안 썼어...ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

lalaaaaaa

jap nak merapu...

실은 너한테 고백 받은 후에 생각을 많이 했었어.. 그냥 덤벼 낼까?? 확 사귀하자 라는 말 할까?? 나이 차이 좀 있지만 극복할 수 있다..있잖아 연하연상...ㅋㅋㅋ 서로 좋아하니까 그냥 하면 되는데..내가 예전처럼 .될까 봐 걱정 되....상처만 해줄 수 밖에 없다 말이야 너한테...

나 좋은 놈 아니야...못하는 거도 많고..

그니까..나.............

meraban lagi

bila letih memikirkan naperlah bacteria aku nie tak mo gemuk2....ahaha.. bersandar kat tepi tingkap dlm bilik syamim (thanks bro...kasi pinjam bilik hahha)...layan langit yg biru ..perh...masyuk dan syahdu./...nanti ingat mau cr umah cam nielah..sure tingkat 20+ keatas hahaha...

ataupun gi kacau kucing itam yg beberapa ekor dan tak jinak kat rose garden kat sebelah parnell bath,,,waaa missed those time.,..siap kena tenung dgn orang2 kat situ,,,perhallah mamat nie dok kejar kucing..hahaha

sejak2 akhirnter aku dah makin malasn ak berjogging asyik nak dok perap dlm umah membesarkan perut ku yg makin besar nie..huhuh naya nie..karang cam orang 2 bln mengandung kang...hahaha

nak subscribe gym kat area tu cam ok tp gymnyer cam tak ok jer..ahaha..ke nak gi tanya jer..hmm...takyahlah aku nak letih2 meluruh ke ukm balik kan...hmm..bang lesen bila nak amil??hahaha---in progress???hahaha

p/s: kalu aku mogok tak mo mkn leh turun berat bdn jadi cam ko tak tiqah??hahah

hohoho...bkn xmas yer

ngatuk nak tido...
nak balek tido....
hahaha


aku blur dan takder idea....
layan kek tp hangus dan pahit pas mkn...
terasa tertipu...
dgn sifat luaran....
tak semua yg manis dipandang manis didalam...

aku ngantuk mahu tido....
smlm aku pecut sampai 140km/h
naseb baek aku tak per-er...
walaupun kecut aku tetap pulas minyak...
sbb hujan punya pasal....
tp aku suka hujan....
sbb hujan aku nampak seksi....*perasan
tp sbb smlm ada lappy kesayangan ku...
aku pecut 140km/h....

hahahahha...aku sengal dah nie...
p/s; kepada sesiapa..aku bosan mlm nie..jom karok atau tgk wayang

terjumpa youtube nie kat kami bukan orang biasa...watch till the end sbb ending der btul2 menginsafkan..

lampi lampai

salam smua...*berangan ramai pembaca...kekeke

adakah aku super lampi???hahaha...sila jwb dgn ikhlas....

암튼, ari jumaat lepas..hang out dgn kwn baek@ housemate bercerita dan berborak sambil tgk wayang dan karok...cite soloman kane yg sungguh ganas...tak sesuai buat kami berdua haaha..darah membuak2 sana sini...jap..tp aritu aku tgk the last vampire tu ok jer siap berangan jadi vampirelah pulak *edward?? oh tidak..sbb aku tak tengok pun lagi cite tu..hahaha......mungkin sbb der ada kaitan dgn agama zaman medievel yg berorientasikan fahaman agama .... kwan aku tu dah smapi ke tempat pergambaran tu isk isk..jeles aku dgrnyer tp yg penting uk memang gloomy hahaaha...

masa balek kwn aku tu dah speku mlm nie mesti ada roadblock...dan memang ada..naseb baek tak kena thn per2...on the way tu kwn aku buka cite pasal budak housemate aku lagi sorang kena thn roadblock dan terpaksa menyuap polis tuie...housemate aku nie satu..lesen mati aritu dan nak renew esok..tapi kenalak tahan mlm tu...dr apa yg kau paham..polis tu -satu negeri dgn housemate aku yg kena thn nie...mintak duit..jadi kwn aku nie pun kasilah...persoklannyer..adakah patut dikasi bila dimintak?? sbb bukan dah kira rasuah gak ke??? aku agak ilang respect kat der sbb gaya percakapan giler alim..tp part yg nie..entahlah..kwn aku tanya kalu aku ditempat budak nie nak kasi or tak??? hmm...susah nak jwb..melayan 300 ke denda atau kasi 50 sebagai duit kopi??....salah tetap salahkan---ayat yg slalu aku ignat kalu nak buat bedna tak baek..hahaha....

apa pendapat korang???

smlm aku di kejutkan dgn berita bahawa...aku lampi dan sengal...hahaha...cammaner tu???
wei ur decision yer...aku tetap cam dulu@ mula2 ko kenal...aku tahu ko dah malu giler tp aku lagi malu sebab sengal dan tak mengerti...hahaha.....patutlah budak2 tu terutama di odie slalu kenakan aku...rupanyer diorang nampak dan tahu..perh...kena menuntut nie ..hahaha...

kopun tahu i just ended rather a "teman tp mesra" punya relationship..not that i'm not ready tp u should have know what kind of person am I...hahaha...bkn kata "no thank you" mahupun " yes I do" sbb aku pun terkedu lagi..hahaha...but one thing for sure...aku dah tak segan dgn ko lagi..hahaha...pas nie leh bertepuk tampar nie...hahaha..tak yah cover2 lagi...hahaha...dan ko pun no need to act innocent ke apa ke..hahaha...

p/s: leh tak aku tanya "mamat yg ko minat nie hot sangat ke???" hahaha..padahal diri sendir tu..hahaah giler lampilah...hahaha

yu

bersiaran kembali dr cc kat bwah umah...nak gi ukm blackout kot2 karang takleh on9 sia2 jer gikan....

cam biasa aku takder planning apa2 untuk weekend yg membosankan dan mengemukkan...

p/s-----------------
pendek tul entri aku..hahaha

bengkek

Did the presentation...i guess smua pun cam paham sbb tak banyak soklan...adeh..wuzeverlah..aku sangat2 tgh down..and perlukan extreme sport!!!hahaha..nak terjun bangunan manerlah niekan..td nak dtg office tak pasal aku rempit atas 100km/h....sangat2 nak cari nahas dgn jln yg penuh kete dan bas yg kureng ajaran....nasib baek kau tak bergesel dgn bas biru...pulak bas mini sesuka ati der jer nak berhenti maner2 pulak tu nak masuk sesedap jer. 18 (tukar jadi korea dan anada akan paham) btullah driver tu!!!!

tiba2 nak gi pantai...waaaa...maner mau cr pantai yg boleh jln kaki sajer kat sini????hahaha

p/s: wei persal makin ramai pelawat dr oklen nie wei???ahahah

keke

getting harder and harder...but i know i can n i will n i do ....

simply because im who
i am...



p/s; mak sakit puret lagi....

berpeluh

jap..aku agak terblur2 nak susun ayat for my abstract untuk tomorrow punya presentation..huhuh..berpeluh gak aku dgr yg esok aku kena present infront of MGI staff termasuk fellow pelawat on my work...huhuh..aku mengelabahlah pulak...gilos punya keja ke atau peluang untuk tunjuk bakat...waaa...skali soklan maut der tanya cammaner tu...waaa...
ke aku patut join balik meeting pasal conference for system biology tu????huuuhu..harap2 esok aku lebih berani dan tak sengal2 masa presentation..waa risau...

beremosi

jap mengular jap..kejap jer...kekek..balik dr pre-meeting dgn sorang postgraduate nie..perh..i wish i could be like him...nampak biasa jer but only god knows what is happening in his wicked mind...btw he's a english man...akupun mula2 terkejut gak der dtng sini buat postgraduate kat sini..here in Malaysia..hahaha...bak kata der ..why not?? insap jap...kekeke....aku did a presentation on what i've done during my 3months attachment in NZ...and he was impress wuf my work..kata2 yg btul buat aku terkesima..yerlah so called "orang kita" argue about the way i handle my microbe...atau lebih tepat mengkondem aku...(down giler seh..sapa ko nak judge aku...dahlah tak buat.........) sabar bang sabar...

masatu aku terpikir..napanyer orang luar yg baru kita kenal beberapa ari...watched our progress and gave a damn good feedback and asked silly question yg sangat penting but didt occur to us..simply because we thought benda tu bodoh dan tak berkaitan....tp orang kita dok nak kondem kita..ok i sound cam menganggongkan orang luar..tp benda tu btul maa...ada gak certain things yg gajah didepan mata tak nampak tapi kuman diseberang nampak...ikut orangkan lah...

i'm hoping i can tackle the next presentation infront of the bigbos..sbb i want to show her that i'm capable...and a very damn good @#$ candidate ...tapi kat sinilah..hahaha...wish me luck...

p/s: aku nak gayang manusia tu cukup waktu meeting nanti!!!!----niat tak baek nie...adeh...
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sbb korang aku syak wasangka dgn pompuan bertudung litup!!!!!

little

went out with en hairi for a weekely movie hunting...apparently i watched almost every current movies that are playing at the cinema...so both of us agreed to watch little big soldier..hahaha super funny beb...i did read one article about this movie saying that jakiechan's movements arent good like the old days simply because he's old..but hey..he still active and super funny..hahaha...the acrobatic movements that by him still cam dulu...story line pun best and one thing for sure..most of his movie nowadays will difinetly end up with a sad twist...not sure why..but still a damn good ending...

hmm..lagi nak tulis per arr..aku dah bosan dok luar..rasa nak pindah dlm jer..ke nak tanya jer kolej zabaa tu??hmm..

update

salam berbahagia kepada pembaca2 yg disayangi (*berangan banyak readers hahahaha)..update sebentar...aku buat pertama kali menjoinkan diri berarak sempena maulidor rasul..punyalah taknak pergi...last2 gi join gak..waluapun lambat..kekeke dan join kumpulan lain...jap kumpulan student "sukan dan rekreasi" kot..kitaorang smua (ada jer makcik3 dan pakcik2 kat belakang join skali) ckp "perasan muda" kekeke...jadi dgn gigih dan berpeluh serta sampin ku yg nak terlondeh..berarak kitaorang meramaikan kumpulan "baru" nie (participants in group should be at least 23...hahaha..bukan aku yg pandai2 join tp budak2 kat depan nie ajak...hahaha) keliling satu ukm...



menarik gak tu...

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sabtu aku meluangkan masa lawat senior aku yg dah pun slamat melahirkan sorang baby gurl yg comel..namer aku terlupa sebab banyak dan berbelit lidah ku nak menyebutkan...waa sudah ada orang baru pulak maam der dah posting kat serdang jadi memang takder harapanlah aku nak kuar berdua2 dgn cam dulu2...hahaha...orang dah ada komitment ---family..tak mo kacau karang jadi2per aku tak mau bertanggungjwab..kekeke...

masa tu gak aku dikejutkan dgn berita resmi..man kahwin dgn sharina...and i didnt know about it...tupun nasib baek ustaz kasi tau..kalu tak memang aku tak tahu...hmm...aku pun jarang jenguk fb der..tp aku terkilan gak sbb tak tahu...terasa gaklah...sbb fb der ada jer aku add..masa tu aku memang takder kat sini..tp at least offline message pun okper...sedih gak lah..kwn lama yg kenal dan agak rapat...takperlah..salah ko gak..orang ajak gi kenduri bukan nak gi pun kan...lagipun kalu ko gipun karang banyaklak muka2 yg ko tak berkenan nak join kan...(kisah silam ) hahaha..shit aku takleh lupakan benda tu..huhuh...biarlah...semoga berbahagia...sapalah akukan...

aku cam biasa masih mencari kekuatan dlm diri nie nak meneruskan kehidupan nie...bak kata mak ada orang yg lagi susah dr kita kat dunia nie jadi..be strong...and fight for what you believe..waa terrorlak mak aku speaking..hahaha...

p/s: lesen L aku dah mati...cam maner nie??? roadblocklak makin banyak seh...

अकू..

DAMN it..baru skarang aku terasa sakitnya!!!!!!



ARRR..aku benci!!!!!

benci!@!!!!!!



p/s: 이렇게 아픈지 몰랐어...

후회? 그런 생각 거내지마..상처 더 깊게 저질 할 뿐이다.....울자...왜냐..짐 그것밖에 없으니까..

rihanna

Oh, how about a round of applause, yeah
A standing ovation
Oooooo, yeah
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on (come on)
Talkin' bout'
Girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (on)

[Chorus]
And don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow

[Bridge]
Oh, and the award for
The best lie goes to you (goes to you)
For making me believe (that you)
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, Oh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now (But it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now