quite awhile since i wrote @ this blog...
well actually i'm planning to delete it..but something keep me thinking about this blog...
while i started this blog in mid of 2004 kot...after found out that blogging was quite cool at that time..besides not many people ----my friends dont know aobut it..i keep it under radar....ala nobody wants to know what i've been doing day and nightkan...ahahaha
well...i went through quite a lot these days..not recently but...started after i was back from NZ...huhuh...love is cruel for someone who has never been in it or at least feel it...and it took me hard!!! really hard that i'm not sure what to do...so i guess the main reason for me to delete this blog is i want to forget everthing and move on...but hey.. it not that simple... that orang can say move on...sounds easy..well it is true..when you lose someone it stays with you..always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt....well in my case.. i lose and it will stay..until i've gone i guess
enough with it..becos i dont want that thing to bother me again...never...and i guess i have been design not to feel love or at least loving other...i'm just a free soul...alone..and will never be love by anyone...welll that what i've though and plant inside this complicated mind...ahahah...(faked laugh btw )
hmm...what else arr....oh yeah...i'm back to the road isnyaAllah...and this time PEnang it is...and next would be my sweet home...but not that sweet after what had happen!!!
hmmm....mom a bit upset since i did tell her about the story about my big stupid brother who cares about himself and never bother to THINK and ACT accordingly!!!!
yes he is indeed my twin..but sorry to say i DONT have any feeling or felt not even a thing when he is in trouble..i guess i just HATE him so much ..TOO MUCH..after what he have done to mum, dad my sis and to ME!!!!
what on earth is he doing rite now?? stop acting stupid and please please obey mum and dad!!!
i'm still piss off wuf him..and i simply couldnt understand how mom and dad cope wuf this...well being a parent is hard...and i respect both of my parents for their patient...
i never tell anyone aobut my brother if people ask or simply dont talk about it...
yes he is older than me and therefore i should respect himm but for the moment i just dont want to!!!
hoping he knows what he's doing and PLEASE wake UP!!!!
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note to myself...
몸 조심해자...옛날 처럼 행동하자...
