aiyo

bila jiwa kacau...

mkn
mkn
mkn
.....

tanya soklan pelik yg buat orang sakit hati,,,

dok diam sambil makin connection with alam ghaib...

tido pas.....

ahahaha

aku segal...

acxident

ok..aku pyscho..ahahhhaha..masa otw ke institute terchinta..passed by lori...pulak tu lori yg jenis kepala singa..aku dah terbayang kalau terpelosok masuk bawah tu cammaner...ok..penuh darah dan bla2.. ada lori nie..and masa passed by corner tajam btul2 tepi institute ada van nie dah rabak kat depan kena langgar..

rupanyer aka S.O tu accident..teruk jugak katanya...adeh...

....ok

maleh nak sambung...

byebye

I'm letting u go for good now...

작별 안사 해줄게...
원하는 대로 줄게...

안녕...

jang

yoyoy...


lamar tak berupdater..
ajaa
spent almost one week kat concord inn hotel berkursus...tmpt kursus yang biasa baig U#$...perh...bilik sorang satu kan..ahaha

gained alot of things walaupun most of the thing relate wuf social science but..new perspective different approacheskan...

well need to put myself together sbb my 2nd prensentation dlm this weekk and then next week..adeh...hoping the best..insyaAllah...

smlm aku got kacau..sian kat kat my hommie yang tak dapat tido dok cuab cope wuf jeritan aku mlm2 sampai kul 3 pagi..hmm...they proposed to me to go to Darul Syifa' untuk treatment...hmm...entahlah jang..segan nak pegi sana..
but sea camamer if thing get worse I dont have any choice but to go there for treatment...

isnyaAllah semua aku pulih..

kecik

CPK sent me an email yg panjang lebar yang berupa nasihat..which really buat aku sedarlah...i shouldnt be an asshole dalam berkawan.

yes betul aku suka mcm tu bila rasa nak tegur atau need something baru nak cari balik kawan tu...tapi pas aku tahu aku always like that aku nak berubah..yerlah aku tak suka camtu jadi jgn buat...lagipun dah ada orang kutuk which aku tak salahkan orang itu...walaupun memang aku sengaja buat kat orang itu...

life as usual...tapi aku cam terdown2 dan mencari arah ...am i doing the rite thing now??? kenapalah aku nak jadi orang tak bersyukur nir??? adeh...

that same feeling datang balik after like 1 year...nak kena basuh dgn ustaz lagi nie....btw ustaz you have become typical daddy ahaha...tahniah2...tiba2 rasa jeles...when would i be like that?? at least he has something to look foward tukan???

anyway aku kat umah rite now..malas nak gi lab sebab satu lagi nak kemas barang. kul 1 nak blah dah. again aku berkelana kat hotel mewah (ok nie aku memang menunjuk2 ahaha)

to sesiapa yg slalu buka blog aku...
sorry sebab aku dah sangat jarang rarely jarang update...

CPK

saya ada kwn..kita namakan dia CPK..kami sangat baik..super baik sampai orang laen ingat kami suka antara satu sama laen (nie tokokan)..

saya selalu mintak tolong dgn dia untuk dw journal
macam2 journal sebab U$% kedekut nak subscribe semau journal yang saya cuba dw...

satu ari kami putus hubungan...

senyap tanpa berita...

dia tahu saya tak reti pujuk rayu...sebab diapun selalu makan hati dgn saya..ahaha

jadi kali nie saya cuba pujuk...

adeh...

tired

too tired again...

passed weekend cam apa jer...nothing productive..ahahaha

sok gi UPM jap...i'm hoping I can freeze dry my samples ASAP amin...

IBS...

aku kena start work out blaik...
joging dan makan madu...

yuyuy

too tired..

tido dulu...

jumpa

jumpa jugak ko eh blog nie ahaha...

bomshell

for the past week i tried my best to give my fullest attention to you. i tried to make you happy. i tried to fulfil the word " couple". I tried...

but you feel unsecure...saying you are just pit stop..worrying that i'll go if i meet someone better than you...

yes indeed this is a trial period. anything could happen...but to cheat you and find a replacement while i'm with you...you think way too ahead... yes i'm a man with desire... feel love and have crushes...but i'm with you now and i'm giving my 100% commitment to you..couldnt you at least notice about it...

i'm frustrated..yes because i couldnt love you ...but i'm trying my best...

now i'm not sure what to do...
words indeed make me bleed from inside....