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alhamdulillah..i'm all better now... i assuming the fan has to do wuf what i've suffered...while i was staying in hetian kajang..i got the same problem...chest pain,,cold etc...and when i switched place---tempat tido away from the fan..i got better...guess the fan need some cleaning to do..perh...tinggi da..and i'm too short ahaha...

eating medicine is not a problem for me..especially drinkable medicine ---remembered masa kecik when mum forced my brother and sister to eat colourful medicine..ahaha.."kalau makan cepat baek..nak sakit lagi ke??---straight foward!!! end of discussion ahaha..and 4 of us managed to finish any kind of medicine..even ubat cacing yg pahit !!! yuck..ahaha..

klah gtg...jln2 mkn angin..isk2..dah 4 days I skipped terawih..adek...sok saya buat yer miss tiqah...

luuu

as for now..stay at home doing nothing..ahaha..nayalah draft papaer tak siap lagi..ahaha...
still having difficulty to breath ..as usually when strike wuf cold ..adeh...thought i'm kebal from all this sissy sakit pening..but at the end i'm just normal guy..ahaha...

sorrry for not returning calls and sms yer korang..i'm too bz wuf sleeping ahaah...24hrs periodly..ahaha
btw manage to use 3 boxes of tissue...another two to go..ahahaah

currently im doing fine and happy cam 해방lak..good..enjoy till it last kan..ahaha..udahlah tu merapunyer..ahaha

custome

indeed i'm pain in the ass (bunyi giler lucah ahaha).
but hey u already know that..therefore accept it...
not sure how long will i be in this phase..years perhaps?
entahlah.. up to u whether to take it positively or negatively...미안...

well yesterday afiq did ask me whether i wanna follow him to shah alam for break fas wuf the boys..but i bailed out.
instead i ended up kat masjid jamek ---and the sad part..break fast dlm ktm ..ahahaha..gatai sangatkan...

performed terawih kat masjid jamek..and it was awesome..got this weird feeling...not a bad feeling but more to happiness and so on..you know what i mean rite...
and in the prayer i decided to embrace what i have----fact that i can see 'it'
hoping i made the rite choice..well it not like i can see it 24 hrs...at certain time which i prefer to ignore it most of the time...

well...since i mentioned about it.. yesterday i came across a blog discussing about ghost---is ghost really exist?? hard to say because people tend to see it differently. i mean A and B would came accros different "image" when they see that thing rite?

oh well i talked to mom about it and she said that she got the same guest. the best thing to do is just to sedekah Al-fatihah. My conclusion is maybe we forgot about it that we -the living- needed to be reminded??

again...hidup ini sementara

bulan

gone where he should have gone ....bye bye

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ate yesterday's rojak and got the constant diarea...adeh...and now feeling sick and tired and sleepy..ahaha...
sat lagi attent meeting on gaharu genomic which i'm not sure why i need to be there not like i'm an important person nor have idea about it..maybe just to show that we have diverse group...not sure..but i might gain something and hoping that it wouldnt be long since i'm quite sleepy ahahha...

last night the sky was bright..super bright..i wonder how long it has been since I saw and enjoyed the same view...last time i remembered when i was in Nz..enjoying the same view from syamim's room...missed those time...if only i can have one walk at mission bay...waaaaa or trying to pursuit a stray cat kat taman dove?? ahahaa...

bm

*entri bahasa melayu...

gerak geri aku menyatakan aku kenablah cepat mlm tu...tak pasti kenapa tapi aku kena blah awal ...meninggalkan korang kemas...

dan mlm tu kat umah napie aku meracau..."mati mati" kata aku...
mael cakap rumah ut pernah berlaku kejadian yang tak elok...
tapi seingat aku... aku tak mimpi perkara buruk selepas kejadian di peluk tempoh hari...termasuk mlm aku meracau...
mael dah gelabah sebab suara aku menakutkan...

balik rumah keri menceritakan apa yang berlaku...
tupun akutak perasan apa-apa tapi yang pasti aku nak sangat ucap salam bila melangkah masuk rumah...
setelah dapat tahu... baru aku perasan...
aku nak tegur tak berani mahupun beri salam...
tak pasal aku kena sebab malam tu dalam bilikpun dia dah dok tengok aku..tapi yang pasti senyuman dia manis...

pagi bangun sahur..aku seorang ...dan sah2 seram sejuk....
lemah longai gak aku kaki nak turun...
kuatkan semangat...
teringat pesan mak...jangan kasi dia hidu ketakutan aku...
mungkin gak dia dah tahu..dia berdiri kat daput memerhatikan aku..kemudian ditangga....
saat itu aku teringatkan seseorang....
arwah tok....
mak kata mak pernah mimpi tok berjubah dan berserban puteh...
dan masa tu gak air mata aku menitis...
pagitu subuh tu sangat shadu...

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pagi tadi dia masih disitu...
mungkin peringatan...
hidup ini sementara.....

me

Dear blog,

ahaaha...our house did a sungkei on saturday...i didnt contribute much but tried my best to give hands althought I had an escape plan on that particular day. but since epul said he would come i stayed for him...but not for long..after he went home i pun followed aahha..leaving behind the mess ahaha..sorry..

again i went to kg baru for sungkei. favourite place..cheap, and tasty...ahaha...thanks mael and napi for stuffed me wuf weird food..ahaaha..

and otw back home..i accidently got into the ladies coach...ahahaa...tebal muka buat tak tahu...padhal i dah malu besar...ahaah...

keri told me something which made me think about what i have done..but entahlah...
but one thing for sure i'm ok wuf it...my decision...

therefore biarlah...

by

situation 1
Hospital pantai Klang---------
fixed parking RM2.00
coco crunch rm1.20...wrong coordinate...adeh

situation 2
hakim restourant Shah Alam
mee goreng + nasi puteh rm9.20
almost slipped..ahahah

situation 3
INTEC Shah Alam
waaa....sweet seh..ahahah

situation 4
all the way to home
lalok.....

nak tidor..byby

yup

I'm a jerk...

sorry...

lu

843am and istill lying on my "tak serupa katil". last night i couldnt slept due to fever (rather a suam suam kuku punya fever). and my head was spinning like gasing wei..so i skipped office today. managed to do few chores that i couldnt due to rain and other stuft..

pastu i decided rather than lying all day long i should do something...and a few hours later i end up watching Avatar..ahaha..the best medicine to combat my "strange fever" ahaha...and brought pair of kasut itam..

jap waktu berbuka..adioss

k

finally i received my long last waited L license..ahaah sigh..yes still L...okok will work toward P isnyaAllah...but the annoying part is.the picture ...tooo ugly laaa which was taken duirng th MYeg test...which i took for 9 minutes only ahahaha...*berlagak kkk

for the past week..waktu berbuka would be wet and mussy..ahaha...rain poured cam langit bocor..which i like very much...and started to affect my body...seram sejuk nie..isk2isk...kata kebalkan..ahaha

and damn i wet my work shoe yang kena blei baru..adeh..duit lagi..waaa nagis jap...
anyone nak spedo aku beli kasut itam baru???ahaah

lala

quick update..aahaha
went sungkei wuf mael @ midvel..noodle station kot rasanyer...and the service was superb...i mean the girl who served us was very super friendly..ahaha..mael asked for kids meal (buat malu jer!!!) and the girl insisted on taking the order..ahahaha....and of course she recommended few of delicious menu for us to try...ahaahah...nak buka kat situ lagi..ahaha...
next day napi joined us jln2 kat jalan TAR...it supposed to be a window shopping but ended wuf napi brought baju melayu lengkap..and me...brought...jubah ahaahah.....wanting to try jubahlah this year..bersederhanakan??ahaaha...is it th 5th day of ramadhan and i already brought baju raya kaa?? no no...nanti saya mai beli lain..ahaha...

then went to kampung baru berbuka there..and i was a bit pissed sebab dok jln2 and tired...but being a good friend (yolah tu)..tried to cover it till end...and ti was worth since the berbuka puasa kat situ was best siot..ahaha....

jadi moh kita ke kampung baru lagi next time..ahahah ....

lorr

rite now i'm tired, flat, bored, and left alone ...sigh...so much for the "suka berbuka sorangg2 eh"...serve u ritelah kot..adeh....

good news ...someone just corrupted the GCMS computer wuf virus that couldnt be cure...adeh..thank god Dr. Ain did flip after heard about it...lega...oh well...mlm nie ponteng solat isyak jemaah dan terawikh..too tired laa..ahaha

alasan...
klah gtg mahu tido...adioss..

mlm...

WAKE UP DUDE....

last year u're haunted wuf quiting ur job and wanting to do master in polymer @ UiTM...and this yearlak..about that "thing".....adeh...

ones a year dude ..therefore...jgnlah dok berangan masa solat terawikh...ahaha...what can I do about it..ahahah..surah panjang sangat..ahahah..

ok pecah rekod, i was back homeprecisely waktu berbuka....and bertahankan dgn air kosong aku gi solat terawaikh..well tak mengantuk dan tersenguk2kan...but still it is not a good thing rite..ahaha...
and tomorrow the same cycle since GCMS dah bermanja2lah...and the engineer can only come during waktu2 dan nak berbuka...adeh...but hey i did learn how to troubleshoot the gcms...leh replace mr yoo nie...ahaha ...

after looked at how lotus handle her sample i am aware there are alot of things that i still ahvent discover and need to learn...so kumpul smua strenght and shoot to Dr. Ain...can i join the training at Singapore ??? ahahah...sigh...havent tell yet...hping she will agree...ahaha...amin...

klah mahu tido adioss

yoshuuuu

i'm not a big fussy about food especially during "berbuka" -(the english word sounds funny ahaahaha). A glass of water and slice of kuih ke or whatever would be enough for me..maybe it is becos i used to berbuka alone...but for sahur is a mandatory for me to have a complete meal...nasilah kan..but yesterday i felt bored wuf it and decided to try my fusion style of cooking...ahahaha...meggi + tomyam campur..ahahhaa...sedaplah gak..tomorrow nak try apa yer???ahahaa...of course a glass of milk and satu sudu honey complete my sahur ahaha...

again i'm here waiting for the subuh prayer before going to sleep again..ahaha...jgn buncit sudah ahahah...

selamat bersahur, berbuka dan beramal ibadat guys...ahaha

mengatuk

found this cool site selling kinds of clothes...http://redhomme.com/....and purchase fews of the items..ahaha skinny jeans as usual, and bag....ahaha...not that trendy bag just simple plain bag..ahaha...rite now i'm here alone waiting for subuh prayer after stuffed myself wuf nasi goreng kerabu and apa yer?? hmm...

cant wait the items to be send to me ahahah...what else to write ..oh yeah turn out my inoculum was ok..just need time to let it heat for an hour ahaha..finished my extraction well cell pellet extraction not the metabolites and i'm stuck until i get my internal standard which i hope to arrive as soon as possible....

lately i keep forgetting everything...which i'm not sure why...well after what ive been involved into i guess i'm to forget a fews things..ahaha
let that thing slip and give moving foward..ahh...draft paper need to do it..malasnyer..ahaha...

sakit perut...

it seems that my precious pre-inoculum had been infested with something......waaaa nagis....

btw WELCOME BACK dude...

pissed off!!!

it is 7.58pm and i just got back from pullman wuf fir..i had some heart to heart talk..ahaha...thanks dude...
and i havent do my prayer yet...opened my email and received "pissed off" email saying "dont worry u can live very well without me. just keep going" ok..what wuf the attitude??? did i hurt you? if yes i'm sorry and dont have any attention to do that...i like u as a friend and i know that wouldnt change!!!

please dont be like this..i have my own issue which i'm to solve it by myself since it concern about me..u spoked ur answer so let me deal it by myself...no worries nothing will change bbtw us..adeh...i'm not good wuf pujuk memujuk..so take ur time and i'll be here doing my things, complecated my life and do what ever i want...ahahaha...

udah2lah tu...karang aku pasang spy karang...ahaha nahas ko ahaha...or should i become a stalker back??aahaha

yucks_2

ok the story continue..ahaha

i literaly suck.... in soccer i mean ahaha...obviously i couldnt even kick the ball ahaha...malu seh when people suddenly appeared and starting to give you this weird looks ahaha...yes i'm a kaki bangku but being a good collegue and sporting bro..i accepted the invitation which turned me into a quite intertaining clown...ahahaa...

few thing for sure:
1. i'm the only perosn with big thick glasses in kat fustal court
2. i'm the only person who used both leg to kick the ball
3. i'm the only person who played not more that 5 minute ahaahha

anyway,, definetly i'll just stay on the bench supporting the team...ahahaha..dgn pop-pop leh??ahaha

we played in Shah Alam...not sure where since i fall asleep on the way and then we lepaking at hakim ....passed by baiduri ahaha...waa rindu mahu pergi ke sana...cik bujie when can i come and visit you?? ahaha...as for now trying my best to stay awake since i need to go to the lab early in the morning to do my preinoculum and shut down the GCMS...and of courselah dah kul 515am i might as well stay a few more minutes for subuh prayer ..Insya Allah...

well nak tengok drama bersirilak..adioss

yucks

i'm a jerk...yes it is...well it is me so showed enthusiams to be part of the road trip..but things changed last minute when suddenly I just bailed out..ahahaha...sorry guys i just not into it any more...yes both of you can be mad at me since i the one who agreed and promise..but again i'm sorry...and yes words couldnt do anything rite now...

well i stayed until 7.00 pm today thanks to datin who really saved me this time ...ahaha..and again...
not sure what to write..again continue later..
i have futsal games to attend...ahaahah....dont laugh..aaaahaha

yuyyu

it was my 1st time..therefore i'm entitle to piss off, mad, get moody and so on..therefore let it be...!!!

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just a remainder to myself that i'm to be blame of what had happened..besides i already choose the path...then bare it like man..not sissy!!!!
yes when i'm in pain i'll bulid this big, thick giant wall that separate me and the person..yes sounds silly..hey i'm a man with great imagination..and this is indeed my way to deal with the problem..sorry if i hurt u but i'm happy like this although my face doesnt match with it..

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as for today...i'm abit off with the works that i supposed to complete before december...adeh...talking about D4 alanine which supposed to be come in together with other...haishh....another 2 to 3 weeks...demmit...my medium couldnt last forever and that fact that i did a stupid thing since i was so desperated that i cut the bottle into two pieces leaving the medium vunerable to atmosphere...adeh...

the class was bored..and being me chek lan..i literarry gasping for "help" for the lecturer so that he could stop for at leaqst 10 minute before continuing giving bored speech which was quite knowledgeable..but..bored..ahahaha...4hrs of lecture without 10 minute break..never had one..and now i know about definetly i'll adjust it accordingly so that students wont fall asleep like what I have done previously...sorry prof..ahaha

and another thing i havent updated my log book which i need to sumbit it this friday...alhai...tampal jerlah fragment tu dah..ahahaha...

oh yes..i went to TPM graduation day..which took me back to the day i had my graduation day at Donyang..which was so similar with what they have in TPM...well..i guess that is how diploma student received their certificant after 3 years of craving and honeymoon..ahahaha...

well i'm off outing agian tonight..waaa follow fir....no i dont to stay at home...and yes i enjoyed my sleep last night...without any screaming, or hands gesture..ahahah..thanks dude...ahaha

OTL

dem it....i'm literaly in pain....

well jom KLCC ahaha..

adioss

ngatuk

ok i was about to cry after hearing that my dad slept as the bus station yesterday night since he missed the bus to get back home after settling the problem that was caused by my big stupid twin brother...if only i know how big the impact...or at least the outcome of it..definetly i will go agains the idea of helping my twin...for god sake you're 26 !!! get a grip and stop causing trouble to mum and dad!!!!

yes i shouldnt blog about this but since i dont have anything to hide or ashamed i guess i should just say it out loud!!!

yes i'm a jerk for not helping him ...my own blood...we even share the same blood...but like previous post..i cant just tolerate wuf it anymore...

thanks to keri and fir for taking me outing although the destination were Kedai ikan and hair saloon...at least i relax and not thinking about the problem...there goes my plan nak blaik kampung...dush....

i cant possibly understand how on earth my dad can face the problem so calmly...as for my mom of course she in her moody and fiecery angry mode...but being a mother she still try her best to solve the problem correctly...and as for me...my hypertension is getting worsen...today i feel like my head is abotu to blown to pieces...definetly i need to get prescription from the doctor tomorrow....huhuuhhuhuhuh..yes i'm 26 and i already dignosed wuf hypertension...too much of seafod i guess...

in the car i ask keri ...am i a good actor? and he quickly answered ..NO!!!..you're so predictable..ahahaha...well if i'm not in a good mood (always not in a good mood) ...a big wrinkle wuf a faked smile will appeard on my face...how hard i tried to cover it it would be worsen eventually...fir added....you're the most complicated person i 've ever met..2nd to be precisely...after aie...(another watak which i just met ahahaha)...

well... today was quite bored since i had to attend one day meeting when i was so looking foward to do my experiment...but jengjeng..someone..a very STUPID and mean student ( i assume) put my precious glycerol stock in a beaker when it was suppose to be kept in a orange box wuf a cover on it...and that meang student even placed the tag and seal the beaker wuf parfilm nicely...well maybe the box was hes/her..but please do inform me first about it sothat i dont go freak and acting like a mad person trying to search for my glycerol stock..well guess what i hope u lose your sample!!!damn you!!...ok i supposely not to say that...sorry...but i a bit upset and amd about this....

well enough wuf the rambling ..need to get some sleep since i'll be attending talk @ KLCC...waaaa...leh pusing2 KL suria...ahahaha.. adios...

and to you know who are you...welcome back...ahahaha

welcome back...

quite awhile since i wrote @ this blog...
well actually i'm planning to delete it..but something keep me thinking about this blog...

while i started this blog in mid of 2004 kot...after found out that blogging was quite cool at that time..besides not many people ----my friends dont know aobut it..i keep it under radar....ala nobody wants to know what i've been doing day and nightkan...ahahaha

well...i went through quite a lot these days..not recently but...started after i was back from NZ...huhuh...love is cruel for someone who has never been in it or at least feel it...and it took me hard!!! really hard that i'm not sure what to do...so i guess the main reason for me to delete this blog is i want to forget everthing and move on...but hey.. it not that simple... that orang can say move on...sounds easy..well it is true..when you lose someone it stays with you..always reminding you of how easy it is to get hurt....well in my case.. i lose and it will stay..until i've gone i guess

enough with it..becos i dont want that thing to bother me again...never...and i guess i have been design not to feel love or at least loving other...i'm just a free soul...alone..and will never be love by anyone...welll that what i've though and plant inside this complicated mind...ahahah...(faked laugh btw )

hmm...what else arr....oh yeah...i'm back to the road isnyaAllah...and this time PEnang it is...and next would be my sweet home...but not that sweet after what had happen!!!

hmmm....mom a bit upset since i did tell her about the story about my big stupid brother who cares about himself and never bother to THINK and ACT accordingly!!!!

yes he is indeed my twin..but sorry to say i DONT have any feeling or felt not even a thing when he is in trouble..i guess i just HATE him so much ..TOO MUCH..after what he have done to mum, dad my sis and to ME!!!!

what on earth is he doing rite now?? stop acting stupid and please please obey mum and dad!!!

i'm still piss off wuf him..and i simply couldnt understand how mom and dad cope wuf this...well being a parent is hard...and i respect both of my parents for their patient...

i never tell anyone aobut my brother if people ask or simply dont talk about it...
yes he is older than me and therefore i should respect himm but for the moment i just dont want to!!!

hoping he knows what he's doing and PLEASE wake UP!!!!


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note to myself...
몸 조심해자...옛날 처럼 행동하자...